Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Lyrics to Logan's song "Forever"

Thanks to everyone who came to Logan's #BRIDGEparty today on Twitter, or who posted poems here on the blog. I can't express how it's made me feel that you took time out of your busy days and spent it with him/me/us.

And thanks in advance if you decide to buy Enthralled: Paranormal Diversions, which is now on sale! (Follow that link for order options.)

Anyway, you came for the song. A VERY big thanks to my friend and fellow novelist Seanan McGuire, whose October Daye urban fantasy series I am always insisting you read. Seanan is also an amazing, award-winning singer/songwriter (go get Wicked Girls immediately after reading this post). She helped turn my lyrics into something that could actually be, you know, sung.

I'd also like to announce the next big Shade-related party, on October 18/19, aka Logan's birthday/deathday. It'll have a musical theme, because...

...if all goes well, "Forever" will be set to music and sung by an actual dude with a guitar. And you'll hear it then. A very special reader is working on that project right now.


If you've read Shade, you know that Logan wrote a song to sing to Aura on the night of his birthday, the night of the big gig, the night they were supposed to consummate their love. The night he died.

Logan started writing "Forever" just the week before, on that afternoon when they...didn't. As you'll see from the first verse, he started writing in his head that very moment.

He never got to play the song for her, but he did sing it for her near the end of the book. It's the scene that, even after thirty-some readings of Shade, is the only one that always makes me cry. It's when Aura realizes what they lost when he died. They lost forever.

So here it is. We hope you like it.

by Logan Keeley
October 18, 20xx

Lying beside me in the failure of flesh,
You wait for the words that will let your mind rest,
But I’ve already left you—I’m inside this song,
I’m chasing the rhythms that split right from wrong,
Forming chords on your shoulder, tracing notes on your hips,
I can’t hear your thoughts as they fall from your lips, and

Every day I give away
A piece of me all torn and frayed—
What I can’t keep, I sell for cheap,
Til nothing’s left for you and me—

How can so much love feel like nothing at all?
How can so much nothing leave me dying to crawl
To the foot of your bed,
I should be with you—instead,
I walk away, stumbling, waiting, always waiting to fall.

When you look in my eyes, can you see I’m not there,
Just skin over bones and this flesh that I bear,
And there’s no room for you, and you know I can never
Get out of myself, get over myself,
For even one moment, much less for forever.

They all take their shares and they all think they see
This stranger inside who pretends to be me.
They’re a roomful of mirrors in this funhouse of fame,
I shrink and I grow, I am wild, I am tame,
But when I stand before you, I can pause, I can heal,
Because you make me matter—you make me real.

Every day they took away
A piece of me all torn and frayed—
What I couldn’t keep, I sold for cheap,
So now what’s left for you and me?

How can so much love feel like nothing at all?
How can so much nothing leave me dying to crawl
To the foot of your bed,
I should be with you—instead,
I walk away, stumbling, waiting, always waiting to fall.

So I close my eyes, fill my hands with your hair,
It’s your skin and your bones and your flesh that I bear,
If I could be part of you, if we could come together
I could find myself, I could lose myself,
Just for one moment, or maybe forever.

They always say that nothing lasts forever
Well, can this nothing last forever

When you look in my eyes, and this time I’m there,
More than skin over bones and this flesh that we bare,
When I’m getting worse, when you make me better,
We’ll find ourselves, we’ll lose ourselves,
We’ll take this one moment…and make it forever.

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I don't think it's possible to express how much I love this....

Posted by: Blogger Diana Julianna at 9/20/2011 12:04 AM

Beautiful, Jeri. *sniff* You took Logan, Zach and Aura, and made them real to me and so many others. That's what writing is all about.

Thank you.

Posted by: Blogger Unknown at 9/20/2011 12:04 AM

Aww! so sweet!

Posted by: Blogger Tabby Williams at 9/20/2011 12:05 AM

Yes, I am crying like a big baby right now. I have so much love for these books, the characters, and you. Beautiful!

Posted by: Anonymous Anonymous at 9/20/2011 12:14 AM

That was absolutely beautiful! It's perfect. Wow. Hearing words like that, make you truly appreciate what you have. Thank you Jeri. *cries and goes lay next to my husband*

Posted by: Blogger Kimberly Callegan at 9/20/2011 12:14 AM

Oh, Jeri!!! This is so beautiful!! Snuggling close to the hubby for sure. You have such a gift! Thank you (and Logan!) for sharing this with us!!

Posted by: Blogger Lynn Marie at 9/20/2011 12:38 AM

Oh Jeri!! So beautiful! :') *sniff*

Posted by: Blogger Megan at 9/20/2011 1:39 AM

Thank you for sharing :) I love it!! Now it feels more complete =} thank you again for these great books!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by: Blogger Renee at 9/20/2011 3:19 AM

Aww Jeri, the song is beautiful. You created a world, characters and a story that are so real and yet so heart breaking.
I love happy endings and I deeply hope Logan will have his.
Thanks for giving us this beautiful world. We definitely believe in love.


Posted by: Blogger ThamyDuff at 9/20/2011 3:25 AM

Absolutely stunning. Thank you for Logan, Zach & Aura and your wonderful world of Shade. No words can express how I feel about these characters and this series.

Posted by: Blogger Marissa at 9/20/2011 4:34 AM

This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing this piece of Logan with us <3

Posted by: Blogger Ginger @ GReads! at 9/20/2011 7:29 AM

I'm bawling my eyes out at work and they are asking if I'm ok!? Am I? I don't even know! This was beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. I don't think there's anything else I can say. (trotts off to bathroom to fix makeup and not look such a mess)

Posted by: Blogger Bwyatt at 9/20/2011 7:31 AM

This is beautiful and heart-breaking! Thank you so much for writing this and sharing it with all of us!

Posted by: Blogger Deanne at 9/20/2011 10:13 AM

Wow. That was perfect. My eyes are all teary and I can't really see what I'm typing now!

Posted by: Blogger Lindsey at 9/20/2011 10:15 AM

My mind kept wandering back to these lyrics today. I think that means I love them.

Thank you SO MUCH for this and all the other goodies you give us. They mean so much to us!

<3 Jen

Posted by: Blogger Fictitious Delicious at 9/20/2011 7:49 PM

Oh, Jeri ... As everyone else has said, this is absolutely beautiful. I have goosebumps and am all teary.
Gosh, this is a Logan day; first reading his story Bridge in Enthralled and now this. Wow! Thanks :)

Posted by: Blogger SMJ at 9/20/2011 9:03 PM

This is SERIOUSLY gorgeous. I love it!!

Posted by: Blogger Ashley @ Book Labyrinth at 9/20/2011 10:44 PM

I would like to reiterate Lindi's comment for I am also crying like the baby I know that I am!! It is beautiful <3

Posted by: Blogger Selena at 9/22/2011 3:55 PM

This... is... so... GOOD.

That seems monumentally insignificant praise in the face of a such gorgeous lyrics, but alas... you've reduced me to a woman of few words.

Well... maybe I'm still a little wordy. :)

Posted by: Blogger Brittany Howard at 9/25/2011 1:53 AM

This really did make me cry..the book itself gave me all these emotions like all the characters were real..and I read "shitf" which made my heart feel sad and happy with an exciting twist I can't wait for "shine" to come out so i can see how it ends..you write better than any other author who's books I have read..you are now my favorite author. You make the book feel like real life thank you Jeri so very much (I didn't even know I could feel this way about book (which I love) but only your books have and I keep re-reading them and I can't get enough! you truly have a gift)I just want you to know that this book really did touch my heart and I'm sad its going to have to end but glad in many ways THANK YOU!

Posted by: Blogger ngozi at 9/25/2011 9:30 PM

Thanks, everybody. It means a lot that you like it. This was a really personal endeavor for me. You know how much I love music and the power I feel that it has to tell a story and get to the heart of hearts. I hope we can set this to music someday soon so it can truly live.

ngozi, welcome to the blog! I'm so thrilled you love the SHADE books. I hope you like the way it all ends. :)

Posted by: Blogger Jeri at 9/26/2011 2:25 AM

Oh my Jeri. I am so beyond words right now. You did a great job and please give Logan some 'Big Sis' hugs for me on this. Truly heartfelt and I am struggling to not cry here at work.

Posted by: Blogger Deena Graves at 9/26/2011 10:46 AM

Wow, that even made me cry and I am not a crier. I am glad this wasn't in the book because it would have been too much for me to handle then. Its absolutely beautiful!

Posted by: Blogger Amber I @ Awesomesauce at 9/27/2011 12:25 PM

Damn, this is really well-written. I can't imagine the work that went into this. I can hear a tune for it right now. Let me know if you need it done. I know these people that know people, and yeah.

This song needs to be done. Keep it real. Music is the universal language. Let's make a trend.

Posted by: Blogger Carrie Clevenger at 9/27/2011 1:45 PM

This song is simply amazing! I wish somebody sang it! I would love to listen to it! It's really touching and beautiful. Keep it real :)

Posted by: Anonymous Chloe at 2/12/2012 5:32 AM

Thanks, Chloe! I hope to find someone someday who'll write the music and sing. That would be GREAT. :)

Posted by: Blogger Jeri at 2/12/2012 10:50 PM

OHMYGOSH!!! I can't believe I didn't read this before, I was too scare of crying, but here I am a freaking crying baby, loving it! You have so much talent.
I love this song, and I love you because you made Logan possible.
Thanks so much Jeri!!!<3

Posted by: Blogger Lis at 7/18/2012 7:21 PM

oh, wow wow wow, this made me so sad for what they never could have had

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